Has been way too long!

It has been way too long since I have posted a new blog! I know I said I wanted to do this on a daily if not weekly basis... well I think the last time I blogged was in February. :s So much has happened since then.

Why don't I start with my biggest accomplishment and what I am most proud of to catch everyone up. I started this blog as a way to help motivate myself to lose weight. Well this kind of took a backseat as a motivator, but something must have stayed with me to motivate me, because since I last posted I have lost over 50 lbs. I made a goal for myself and told myself that I had to lose that 50lbs by a certain time (my trip to Indy which will be mentioned in the next paragraph!). I was 2lbs away from my goal before my trip!!! I was pretty proud of myself, but now I have a new goal and a new time frame!! I am determined to make myself a healthier person! After our family vacation I lost motivation, but it is back!! It is amazing what a few lbs can do for ones self esteem and motivation!! It is back on in full force!

Now on to the best part of my life since my last post!!! INDY!!! I cannot say enough how awesome that week was! It was beyond the best week of my life! I never thought I would be into the sport of swimming as much as I am now. Going to Indy made me love the sport even more than I already did!! MOST of the athletes are so down to earth and so willing to take time for their fans! I wont go into every detail about it because most of the people reading this already know every detail about it. LOL Lets just say it is a small world and so much happened that I will never forget for as long as I live!

A new chapter in my life is working while going to school. I have never worked while going to school and it is a new challenge in my life to try to manage my time, but I am really enjoying my job. I am a cashier at my favorite store TARGET! It is obviously not my dream job, but it is a great for making a little extra money for various trips that I plan on taking this summer! School is dwindling down. ONE SEMESTER LEFT!!!!! I have made some great friends this semester and am really enjoying my classes! As for what I am doing after graduation. I have a few options. I want to go explore what else is out there. I have seen what is out there and I want to experience it. Right now I am thinking Denver might be my top pick. My friend Laura lives out there and she is looking for a roommate. I am thinking about at least trying it out for the summer. If I don't like it I can always find somewhere else to go! I just want to have fun in life!!!

Ok bloggers! I am off for now! I will try to update again soon!!

Things on My Mind

Wow it has been quite a while since I have posted a blog.  I wanted to try and do this on a weekly even daily basis, but obviously life has caught up with me and that did not happen.  Things in my life lately  have been pretty crazy.  School has started and the homework has set in.  For the past week not a day has gone by that I have not had to do a lesson plan, but I guess that is something I am going to have to deal with if I am going to be a teacher.  LOL   

Not only has school been on my mind, but also all this hype about Michael Phelps. For those of you reading who don't know...  I am a HUGE Michael Phelps fan.  I have been since the Athens games.  Lately Michael has been in the media for a photo that has surfaced from a private party he attend 3 months ago.  I have to say that over the past week I have been very upset.  Not by the actions of Phelps, but by the actions of the media.(keep reading I will get into my feelings about the actual pic)  Is this really the most important story in the country right now? I think not!!!   Did we not just get a new President!! HELL YES WE DID!!! THANK GOODNESS!!!!  Lets focus on the more important things in life like the economy and how Obama is going to clean up the mess that Bush left him with.  Like I said before the picture was taken at a PRIVATE party and it should have stayed private.  It makes me sick that a friend would do this to him.  Like he has said in many interviews over the past week... "this week I have learned who my true friends and family are."  A true friend wouldn't sell out a friend like that.  What is the world coming to?  People care about two things these days 1. MONEY 2. THEMSELVES.  

Ok now onto the actual picture.   Maybe it is the 23 year old college student in me but I am not disappointed in his actions.  He has trained every single day for the majority of his life.   His life has consisted of eating swimming for the most part.  He has not had the opportunity to live his life and explore.  He takes 6 months off after accomplishing something that no one in the world as EVER done.  Mike is the only one who can say that he has won 8... count them 8!... gold medals in 1 olympics.  He himself won more gold medals than some COUNTRIES!! HOLY SHIT!  If that isn't something to be proud of then I don't know what is! So we praise him and raise him because of all his accomplishments and as quick as we do that we bring him back down.  We are all human... NEWS FLASH... Human's make mistakes.  He smoked a little pot.  Yes, it is illegal, but so is underage drinking, downloading free music, speeding,  jay walking, the list could go on.  EVERYONE and I mean EVERYONE on Earth has broken they law sometime or another.  Yes, some are more extreme than others, but it is still breaking the law.  Leave the kid alone... let me see you train for 12 years of your life and see how you react when you finally get a break.   

Onto the three month suspension.  I don't think that it is all bad.  They are treating Michael like he is a human who made a mistake and there are consequences that he has to face just like anyone else.  I feel that Michael is taking this in a very mature fashion.  He has admitted that indeed it was him in the picture, and he has taken the suspension and accepted the consequences of his actions.  Had the suspension been much longer I may have felt differently (maybe that is because of the fact that Nationals are in July and I have my tickets and am ready to go!).  I feel that all this negativity is just going to fuel him more and make him that much more ready to kick some ass at Nationals!! 

Sorry this got so long.  I have had all this built up inside me this week and I needed to get it out!! Hopefully I will post again soon! 

Day 3

Well today I have kind of been on an emotional roller coaster.  It was my last day of work before going back to school.  Most people would be extremely excited about this, but not me.  I am going to miss my "kids" terribly.  Over the past year I have grown so attached to those little guys, even though they make me want to pull my hair out sometimes.  I know I will be back to visit, but I don't know if I will come back to work full time like I was.  I have been off and on at this job for 4 years and I am so going to miss it.  I am not only going to miss the kids but also the women I work with.  For the most part we all get along so well and I am truly going to miss seeing them everyday! I told my boss I will fill in whenever she wants me to and I know I will be getting calls!! So I did not say goodbye I just said I will see you later!! I am going to miss walking into work every morning and hear all my "kids" call me  "Mama Nikki" as I became known!!  For some of the kids that are there day in and day out you really do feel like you are their parents. It is like I am a mother leaving her 60 children behind.  But it is time to move on with my life and finish my degree!! :)   

 

Master Cleanse day three has been tough! While I was at work it was fine I was not tempted to eat one bit and I just stuck to my drink.  When I got home, now that is a totally different story.  I think I just need to kick my little brother out of the house while I am doing this because he is the cause of all my temptation and boy does he love to rub it in that I can't eat.  But what are little brothers for right?  Well tonight he wanted to order pizza and eat a bunch of junk food while he and my Dad watched the Florida-Oklahoma game.  The smell of the pizza, the shrimp mom was making, and the bbq chicken wings in the oven was too much too handle, so I got my coat on and went to a friends house to get away from the temptation.  The whole time I was in the house I kept saying to my family I really want food, I want it really bad, but I stayed strong and ate nothing.  When I came home the smell was still lingering in the house and I still wanted food, but with a little help from my Mom I re-convinced myself that I can do this and made myself a drink.  This time I thought I would get a little creative and I made it with ice and put it in the blender.  YUM!!! I used a spoon and it was actually like I was eating!! LOL It made me feel so much better!!!   I know now that with my strength and the support of my family that I can do this!!! 

Sorry for the typos

Just wanted to say sorry for the typos in the last blog I was on my phone and did not read through it!

Day 2

Today was nonstop craziness for me as I am trying to find a new apartment for when school starts. Talk about stressful. I saw a few nice ones but mostly they were dumps. Two of them looked like a crack house although I don't know what that would look like but I am sure this apartment was close. I did look at one that I really really liked but it was a house and was rather expensive. I never really thought about a house before cause I know it comes with a lot of eraonsibility but I really like the idea now and the landlord was very nice. As we continued our day we ran into the landlord 3 times. Taylor and I thought that it was a sign that I needed to get the house but Dad being the one footing the bill he gets the last say and he was not with us.
As for the master cleanse today has gone great. Tons better than yesterday. I woke up not feeling hungry although I am hungry now but that could also be the smell of subway in the car once again thanks to that brother of mine. Why do I do anywhere with him he just temps me. Well his tempting is not working I have stayed strong and have not had anything to eat. I am feeling really good about this now and thinking that I can get through this. I know if I do I will have great results.

Day One

Today was day numero uno on my Master Cleanse.  Let me tell you I was dreading it.  This morning before taking my first drink of my lemonade mix I took a deep breathe not know what to expect.   To my surprise it was not that bad.  I thought to myself I can handle this.  Then I went to drink the second glass from a batch that I had mixed for the whole day.  This one not so good, the red pepper burned that back of my throat so bad, and I could see the pepper floating in there which did not help things at all.  I did my best to drink most of it but was not successful at drinking it all gone.  My third one I tried and it was even worse and being at work I was not able to mix a new batch so I decided to stick with regular water for the rest of the day.  Tomorrow I am going to cut down on the red pepper and gradually add more as the cleanse progresses.  I think today God was testing me to see if I could actually do this.... it was a day surrounded with some of my favorite foods.  To my surprise I stayed away from them did not take one bite! It was so hard to order a water while I watch my little brother snarf down a triple stacker from Burger King with the smell permeating through the car.  I held my ground did not eat ANYTHING!!  It was tough but I did it!!!   

I keep going into spurts of doubting myself.  I know I shouldn't do this.  I know that I am hard headed enough that if I want to do something badly enough I will do it.  So I have these spurts of doubt and get down on myself and then I tell myself this is nothing.  That this will benefit me and that it is only 10 days of my life.  If I can't do this for ten days then what can I do?   I mean is this really that hard?  Ok so it is but it is not like I am preforming brain surgery.  Tomorrow is going to be a better day for me.  I am going to get in all of my Master Cleanse drink that I am supposed to and I will be day two down!!! They say the first three days are the hardest after that it gets easier.  I am just going to do my best to plow through these first 3 days and half way through tomorrow I will be halfway there!!! 

First Blog EVER!!!

Ok so this is the first time I have ever blogged.  We will see how this goes and how well I keep up with it.  The reason I decided to start this blog was because I am starting to live my life differently.  Tomorrow at 8:30 AM (well actually by now it is today) I will be starting the Master Cleanse.  I am changing the way I am living and this is step number one!   I am very determined to do this, but after just getting done mixing up a batch of the drink..... I'm not too sure about it.  I am going to give it my best shot, and I know I should not doubt myself at all because if I do it will only make things worse, but looking at it I just couldn't help it.  I am starting strong though all out no turning back I can do this I know I can... this is the change I need in my life.  I want to live a long healthy life and right now the healthy part is not happening.  I wasn't doing too bad until the holidays came.  All the family and good food.... man it does bad things to your body.  LOL  SO now it is time for a change... a MAJOR CHANGE.  To me this is not just a diet, but it is a lifestyle change.  This Master Cleanse is going to be the starting off point and the rest will follow....