Day One

Today was day numero uno on my Master Cleanse.  Let me tell you I was dreading it.  This morning before taking my first drink of my lemonade mix I took a deep breathe not know what to expect.   To my surprise it was not that bad.  I thought to myself I can handle this.  Then I went to drink the second glass from a batch that I had mixed for the whole day.  This one not so good, the red pepper burned that back of my throat so bad, and I could see the pepper floating in there which did not help things at all.  I did my best to drink most of it but was not successful at drinking it all gone.  My third one I tried and it was even worse and being at work I was not able to mix a new batch so I decided to stick with regular water for the rest of the day.  Tomorrow I am going to cut down on the red pepper and gradually add more as the cleanse progresses.  I think today God was testing me to see if I could actually do this.... it was a day surrounded with some of my favorite foods.  To my surprise I stayed away from them did not take one bite! It was so hard to order a water while I watch my little brother snarf down a triple stacker from Burger King with the smell permeating through the car.  I held my ground did not eat ANYTHING!!  It was tough but I did it!!!   

I keep going into spurts of doubting myself.  I know I shouldn't do this.  I know that I am hard headed enough that if I want to do something badly enough I will do it.  So I have these spurts of doubt and get down on myself and then I tell myself this is nothing.  That this will benefit me and that it is only 10 days of my life.  If I can't do this for ten days then what can I do?   I mean is this really that hard?  Ok so it is but it is not like I am preforming brain surgery.  Tomorrow is going to be a better day for me.  I am going to get in all of my Master Cleanse drink that I am supposed to and I will be day two down!!! They say the first three days are the hardest after that it gets easier.  I am just going to do my best to plow through these first 3 days and half way through tomorrow I will be halfway there!!!